Kayla is a lifelong friend of Teal's from their Cornwall Typhoon hockey days. She is the most caring individual I know and someone you can count on to be there for you no matter what. She is the kind of friend you can go months without seeing but when you get together it's like nothing has changed, a true friendship. Kayla epitomizes bronze & gold in her determination to live life to the fullest, make a difference in the lives of others and see the world. We couldn't be happier to feature her!
My passion growing up was hockey. I had the amazing opportunity to play NCAA hockey for Norwich University. Those four amazing years flew by, and ended. My passion, my lifestyle, everything I knew had come to an end. Returning home the summer of 2014 was hard for me, I found myself a little depressed. I found comfort working for my parents at the Ontario Hockey Academy. My life-long passion continued, in a new form.
Right after graduation, May 2014, before I began working, my sister and I had the opportunity to travel around Europe on the Contiki European Experience. The same Contiki that Mad and Teal did the year prior. I had fallen in love with Europe in every single way. Next thing I knew I had bought a one-way ticket to Brussels, Belgium in April, 2015. This time I was going alone and without a tour company. I spent two and a half amazing months backpacking Europe, and it was the most liberating experience. I remember sitting in the Dublin, Ireland airport with tears in my eyes wishing I was catching the next flight to Warsaw, Poland.
From that trip, a new passion was born - Travelling. Going back to work for another hockey season was tough. I thought day in and day out about where to travel next. I found myself on days sitting at my desk researching places to go, and things to do, rather then doing my work. Now, it has come to the point where I question where my interests lie, what is it I truly want out of life? I am still without an answer and, in fact, am left with more questions, than answers.
I am the type of person that wants to be successful in life. Not needing to make it big, but to a point to just live life comfortably, with not having to worry. The thought of leaving what I know, and taking a risk is the most terrifying thing. I work in the family business so the security of a job is here, but is it what I really want in life? I get asked, or have comments made daily about how one day I will take it over, every time I hear that I wonder, is it really for me?
I am scared; I am terrified to walk away from what I know. I’m scared to walk away from a job, the incoming paycheques, leaving for something I have no answers too. Taking a RISK scares the shit out of me. I don’t want others to see me fail, I want to prove to my family, my friends, myself that I can conquer life. I don’t know what I want out of life, I don’t know my purpose, yet. The only things I do know is that I love traveling and I am scared to take a risk.
I have failed many times in my life, but only with little things, I have never been to the point of rock bottom, and the thought of that ever happening is petrifying. There are many things I have said I want to do, or ideas of what I wanted but I can never come to the point of a conclusion. In the past two years I have thought about pursuing my MBA, maybe becoming an engineer, taking night classes to be a make up artist to do on the side. But why can’t I ever decide which is right for me? When I think about going back to school, why would I put myself in debt? What if I start and don’t like it? When I think about leaving the job I have, I don’t want to burden my parents with more work. These are things I say to myself. Some might call them excuses but they are the reasons I’m scared.
The one statement that always comes to mind when I have these ideas is, I wont be able to travel during that time. With all these don’t knows, I have come to one conclusion that what I do know is I want to travel. It may not bring me answers, it might confuse me so much more, but right now that is what I truly want. Hopefully, sooner then later, I can get over my fear, and set off with no plan, no return date and see what it is really like to not have something to come back to. I know it will fall into place, I just need to take that step.